I was feeling lost. So much change has happened, like gravity might not hold me to the Earth. I knew I needed to be outside, to feel Gaia’s forms: earth, water, wind. The Labyrinth at the Starhouse in Boulder, CO came immediately into my head. Sadly, the road to the Starhouse is closed because of the flooding. So, what is next, I wonder.
I needed a cure for this feeling. To fix, to change it and make it better. Then came the ah-ha moment. What if I could stay in the feeling and just feel lost for as long as it took to not feel lost? Well, that’s a pretty scary prospect, given my recent history and I have things to do! This is my inner dialogue about Being: “I have a life, stuff to do, deadlines, people expecting things from me, bills to pay, places to go.” “OK,” said that voice. And then I took a breath. And another. I put my head back and closed my eyes.
I went to the Starhouse Labyrinth as I remembered it. I saw the Lemurian Sisters walking through it on the Fall Equinox, 2012. It was a hot afternoon, but there was a breeze and some shade. The ground was so dry that year and we could hear the dirt crunch under our slow steps. It took an hour for everyone to go through the labyrinth, and that was our last exercise of the day. I’m sitting here, just over a year later, wondering if gravity will hold me to the Earth. And I am at the Starhouse last year. I take another breath and sink deeper into the energy between the Equinoxes.
Now I can see time from a different place, from a place of no gravity, just observing the turn of the planet and the passing of a year. Another breath and I sink deeper into the chair and feel its support around me. Yep, there is definitely gravity here, because I can’t move – don’t want to move…just be here, softly in surrender. For right NOW, at least.